How do I know that what I want is what I really want? That it is not something that follows me from my childhood or other times, things that I have picked up, about how I should be. How my life should be.
It seems like an hopeless task. No matter what I do it seems like I cannot figure out what I really want. It is strange, it feels hopeless. It cannot really be that hard, can it? I am scared that a lot of my choices are affected by what I think others' want me to do, and that I am somehow dependent of their confirmation.
I need to understand this better.